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Anita's Journey to Finding Herself

Posted by Anita Figgs, Danbury Edge Member on May 13, 2019

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Hi! My name is Anita Figgs, and my journey to becoming me started in 2008. I never really had a weight problem or what I would have considered a "health problem" until a tragedy hit. I lost my youngest son in a car accident in 2005, and my entire life fell apart. I was put on a barrage of medication for severe depression, but it only made things worse for me. I started gaining weight, drinking with the medication and became worse- actually suicidal.

In July 2008, I realized I couldn’t live this way anymore, and sought a deeper help. I entered a dual diagnosis center for my depression and medication usage. My journey began with learning how to survive the loss of my son 1 day at a time, and all of the feelings that came with that loss. That pain took over my being. When I left the treatment facility, I had blown up to 267 lbs. I stayed at that weight for a couple years while I worked on myself mentally, before realizing that I looked and felt horrible physically.

I began a eating healthier and lost weight, but was just not feeling "thinner" like I felt I should. I wound up getting injured (my back), but refused to take medication because of my history with prescribed drugs. My doctor suggested I join a gym and work on strengthening my core to help my back. This was in 2014. I was getting mentally stronger, but something was still off.

I joined the Danbury Edge when it was only a trailer. When they finally opened, my friend and I started doing group exercise classes. After a while, I started noticing a healthier outlook and more stamina physically. Since then, I have continued classes and incorporated personal training.

I have so much respect for my instructor and trainer, Tracy Springer. Her true compassion and honest caring have always shined through in our sessions. I recently began small group training with Tracy and some other wonderful women at the Danbury Edge.

I have learned so much about myself in this journey. I have survived the worst possible pain a human can mentally endure, and my life isn’t about being the best of the group, but the best I can be. My goals aren’t about being the thinnest or the best looking in a bathing suit. I do not compare myself to others. I compare myself to me: where I was in 2008, and where I am today. Because I began this journey to a mentally and physically better me, I’m able to be there for my family and friends. My experience, strength, hope and love are my gift to anyone that needs it. Mental and physical health are a lifetime goal to me, and my journey is just beginning. I hope to continue on this path for many years to come! 

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